||[Jan. 26th, 2012|12:53 am]
I tried to think of a good reason for why I haven't updated this thing in so long, and I came to a conclusion.|
I don't update this because I made it to vent. (That, and to be a unique snowflake who ~*~blogged~*~ sporadically.) This journal was created when I was in middle school as an escape from reality, since my eighth grade year was the year I was diagnosed with depression, around 14. Now, at 19, it has hit me that I actually have a wonderful life. So what if I have a depression episode every now and then, I get back up, shrug it off, and learn from that moment. I learn how I can avoid feeling this way and what actions I can take to enforce my acquired experience. I have many people in my life that love me, and I have people that I love. I don't hate anybody. There is nobody in this world that I personally know and hate. (Keep in mind, hate and dislike are two very different things.)
So what is there to vent about? Nothing. Nothing at all. And I like it like this. I like using my LJ to post on ohnotheydidnt. If I use this thing for its intended purpose, what am I going to put it in? "My friend is mad at me. Boo." That right now if the only thing I can think of that makes me feel anything negative. (Notice I didn't say "depressed." Sad, maybe, but definitely not depressed. And it goes away in about a day.) There are people that use diaries, journals, etc. to vent about things that are actually tragic and horrible. Someone like me using one of these things is a croc of shit. It's been roughly two and half years since I even though about writing something on my livejournal, or venting my stress on the internet for that matter.
Basically, I've never been happier.